Archive for May, 2006

Waking Vision

Sunday, May 28th, 2006

I had a weird dream last night.  It…it was something like, I had to leave my house, which was really a room in a big apartment complex, and anything I left would cease to belong to me.

So I planned to leave with a couple friends, and I was getting geared up, but I spent so much time deciding what to bring for one of them that the one waiting with me had to leave (ended up deciding on four pairs of different metallic-colored earrings).  It took me all day to figure out what I was bringing with me.  I finally left the room, with night falling and the guards of whatever organization was kicking people out, and I went out only to find one of the guys wearing a jacket of mine!  So I got upset and he gave it back, and I left to find my friends.  I didn’t feel hopeful that I’d find them though, because it was so late…

All of this with The Root of All Evil playing in the background…

…very weird.

Conflicted

Saturday, May 27th, 2006

Okay, so I had a more cohesive idea of what I was going to say earlier, but that was before listening to The Root of All Evil by Dream Theater.  However, I do remember the main point.

As it turns out, the charge app goal thing is continuing, and it does not seem that it will go away in the forseeable future.  This time around, however, I was asked how many I would get.  It was still a question I didn’t want to answer, but it was asked all the same.

So I put one.  And wouldn’t you know, the first customer I help wants to apply for a charge card.  Go figure.

Now here’s the thing — I personally feel like asking to apply for a credit card is tantamount to peddling poison.  I don’t want to do it, and it seems wrong to make getting them mandatory.

But when I got it, I felt good.  I didn’t want to, and I mentally  scolded myself after it happened, but it did all the same.  So now I’m morally confused a bit.

Oh yeah, and I missed the last casual friday.  The dress code changed, so now jeans are out 24/7.  Great.

I tried to get an application for the Baskin Robins during my walk home, but it’s really hard finding a legitimate way of talking to the drive-through window guy when you don’t have a car to drive through with.  Or at least, a way that doesn’t look like I want to hold up the place.

I can’t believe I forgot to say this before now, but Georgia has invented the single best band name ever: Smash Pancake.  It is my hope that I will someday be worthy enough to be a part of this phenomenon.

…Best…name…EVER

Out to Dry

Wednesday, May 24th, 2006

So I forgot to post yesterday about the insane guy with a JCPenney card.  If he shows up again, I’ll get into more details.

What I really want to talk about is my day today.  It was not fun.  Not from 9:45 AM to 5PM, at least.

First off, there are “goals” that all associates have for getting JCPenney charge card applications (”charge apps” around the office) from customers.  Only, they’re not so much “goals” as “quotas”.  Yeah, you can get away with nothing for a couple weeks.  Which I have.  But now, having done that, I’ve been put on the “zero list”.  Pretty self-explanatory, right?

So, today I come in, and I’m presented with this sheet for making a personal charge app goal, or some such tripe.  Only, I didn’t fill it out.  Someone else had already written in how many I was promising, they just had me fill in my name.  There was no choice in this matter.  I expect I’ll be having a one-on-one talking to at some point in the near future.

But what really takes the cake is that I wasn’t even scheduled for today.  I went out to the store on autopilot, and I was put to work.  Again, I wasn’t given a choice.

Now granted, I was trying to punch in.  But I was doing so as part of “this is my job” and not “I really want to work on my day off”.  So, the same manager who wrote my empty promise for me also said, “That’s okay, we can use you.”

Did it occur to you, madam, that maybe I just came in on the wrong day?  Or that I’d like to sleep?  Or that JCPenney isn’t my life??

I’m seriously thinking about giving my two weeks’ notice.  Hopefully the Dunkin’ Donuts/Baskin Robins needs people for the midnight shift…that would be awesome…

And, while I’m being ranty, I’d like to announce that I’m going to do something totally selfish tonight: I’m going to get rid of my Maple Story account — without telling my ‘buddies’ in game.  I mean, I already tried, and the person I talked to didn’t get it.  So now, I must do this for me.

On a different note, I went grocery shopping!  And ate an orange!  Joy!

Also, there are too many games vying for my attention.  Radiata Stories, Dragon Quest VIII, Vagrant Story, Final Fantasy Tactics…I want to play them all!  So much to do, so little time…

Input Command

Wednesday, May 17th, 2006

I have come to a realization: I am a creature of reaction.  Yeah, I have spurts of creativity and initiative, but I mainly respond to people’s input.

Is this a failing?  Am I too pathetic to make something for myself?  I mean, I haven’t worked on my book in…what is it, months?  I haven’t called the LAS advisor people to set up an appointment yet.  I wasn’t even doing much to help around the house until I was given the directive to make sure the dishwasher was emptied of clean things.  Which I think I’ve been doing a pretty good job of.

But might not have done so had I not been told to.  Heck, if someone said, “Time to brush your teeth,” I’d probably be in better dental shape than I am now.

This is probably why I feel fearful and anxious when I try to think about my life too far into the future.

Anyways, on a mostly different note, Heroes of Ivalice is almost begun!!  I am so getting up at seven so as to roll up my character at eight.

It’s a good thing I stayed up until 5:30 AM writing Arylin’s bio last night.

-Adieu

Edit2: Oy, forgot about attachments.

Arylin's Avatar Arylin’s Bio

M-Day

Sunday, May 14th, 2006

I had been thinking about sharing some things that had irked me, today and previously.  But, after reading Bahiyyih’s latest post, I just can’t do it.  Sully the day for celebrating all you wonderful bringers of life?!  For shame!

No, I’ll rain on a cloudy day.  For now, happy Mother’s Day.  Oh, and I have somethin’ for you, my dearest, favoritest mom.  I just, y’know, have to give it to you…when I see you next…

As a side note, following the trend of abbreviating holidays (i.e: B-day, M-day), would that make the Day of the Dead D-day…?

Gettin’ Down on Me

Thursday, May 11th, 2006

Yeah, I’m going through another period of feeling worthless.  It comes and goes.  Kinda like consciousness.

Oh, I also wanted to say that heavy whipping cream past its due date is scary.  I know this because yesterday I experienced just that.  Fortunately, I only smelled it and poured it on my corn puffs before decreeing it inedible (in my head).

But seriously, it smelled awful.  Like evil, revengeanceful paint.

PS: I am a horrible, horrible person for laughing at this.  Hysterically.

PPS: These too.

I’m still here!

Thursday, May 4th, 2006

Wow, I’ve fallen pretty far from my post-a-day ideal, huh?  Well, my excuse is getting a ton of furniture and having my room in a shambles for the weekend.

And finding out that Dragon Quest VIII, which had been sitting in my room unopened, is actually a really fun game.

And addictive…>_>

Edit: Thought I posted this yesterday…ah well.  In any case, my Emigrant Direct account is now official!  And it’s already earned some interest!!  Woo-hoo!!!

*Ahem*  DQ VIII still continues to be habit-forming.  Although there are some certain aspects that I still disapprove of.  I won’t get into any details, but suffice it to say that it’s no revolutionary in its treatment of women.

Here’s one thought I’ve had while playing DQ VIII: “Mmm, shenanigans…”